i am oficially done with my internship *proud* didn't even have to do any 'repair work' on my reports or make extra assignments! sure, a 6.5 out of 10 isn't the best score ever, but i had been dreading a much worse result.
so now, i'm done with school for the summer and don't have to get back until september, which feels great. though i do have to make sure and check that i've actually been enrolled for classes next year, cause school messed that up before >_<
something else i'm done with is my ex. he's been annoying me for a while now. and of course, i know he's having a hard time cause he still 'loves me too much'. well, i'm just not buying it anymore. if he really did, he'd give more of an effort to at least stay in touch. right now, i have to bug him to return the dvd's he borrowed off me, saying he'd return them after he'd watched them since we would stay friends. i haven't heard from him in weeks and actually had to ask him twice already to return the discs. it seems that he feels like acting as a jerk and i don't need any of his whining. i just hope i get my stuff back soon so i can actually leave it all behind. it's over and if he can't come to grips with that, that's his problem and it shouldn't be mine.
although it is sad to throw away over four years of my life like that, but i guess it really isn't possible to stay friends after having had a relationship. *sigh*
speaking of relationships, i have to admit that i am really enjoying my time with Walter. though his friends are annoying as hell. one of them actually told us the following when we came over to watch the soccer match (damn euro cup! at least it's over for the Netherlands now, so i'm not forced to watch it anymore ^^) anyway, he told us the following:
this has been bothering the whole group now and i feel like i need to speak up. next time, only one of you is allowed to come cause you are too (with lack of a better word in english) lovey-dovey.
i was shocked. the only thing we'd done all evening was sit close to each other and occasionally gave each other a little kiss. nothing french or too touchy, just a quick peck on the lips or cheek.
so, while they do find it very important to know whether or not we have had sex already, it is too much of an eyesore to them to see us hug/kiss one another?!
what he said was actually pretty hurtful to me. i'd been trying all weekend to fit in with the group and he basically told me that i still wasn't accepted. ok, that's understandable since they don't really know me, but they're not even making an effort to get to know me. and by the looks of it, they aren't happy for their friend that he found a girl he likes either. i guess the last part bothers me the most..
i left right after that. didn't dignify them with a response or a goodbye. i had to get out of there or else i would really have regretted my actions. told Walter he could stay if he wanted to, since they're his friends, but i wasn't going to let them walk all over me. if i wanted to take mental abuse, i'd stay home or go back to highschool. he went with me though and we spent a good time talking about what the hell just happened. he assured me that this wasn't the thought of the whole group, which seemed logical, since the last time we were there together that one guy hadn't been there and there hadn't been any problems. after a while Walter admitted he really wanted to see the rest of the game and we went to another friend of his. no problem there, thank goodness.
*sigh* i decided to avoid the group of friends for the time being. sod them, if they can't deal with me, i will not try to deal with them for a while either.
saturday was quite annoying. Walter had to be home early and i decided to go back to the bar on my own. bad idea. well, it wasn't that bad up until the point where i decided i'd just finish my beer and go home, since no one interesting was there. that's exactly the point where i suddenly started receiving free beers from people i didn't know. now, that wouldn't have been too bad, had it been a nice person around my age just looking for a chat. but no, it just had to be a guy well in his thirties trying to pick me up >_< and he wasn't very good at it either, seeing how most of the conversation went on and on about soccer. not my thing.
in fact, earlier that evening an even older guy decided to chat me up using the line: so, you're a Brabander (someone from the south of the Netherlands) then? he figured that out just by the brand of beer i was drinking.. erhm, no, i'm not, i just like this particular brand (now piss off) luckily i was able to get him to go away by starting to work really hard on writing a long text message to Walter.
the other one was a lot harder to get rid of, but thank goodness i noticed an old classmate on the other side of the bar. so i waved, made desperate eye movements and joined him and his friends. that really saved me.
let's see, what else has been going on..
a good lot of my fish died. actually, five of them did within two days. i'm thinking of getting the water in my aquarium tested, cause this sure as hell can't be good!
i also bought a new tv. it's huge ^^ 22" LCD with built in DVD player that plays all regions, so i can actually watch my import anime on there too ^^ i actually only needed a new dvd player, seeing how it went WHIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRTICKTICKTICKWHIRRRRR every time i tried to play a dvd or cd. couldn't hear much of the sound of the disc over the buzzing and ticking of the player. i do owe my mom about 350 bucks now, but it's certainly worth it!
in a few weeks, i'll be off to Chibicon, a one day anime and manga convention in the Netherlands. i've never been to another con than the Animecon, so i'm curious as to how things will go. should be fun.
in the mean time, i'm working hard at the shoestore.
and in my free time, i've started reading the Discworld novels by Terry Pratchett. man, are they ever fun to read! i just finished the second one this morning and am planning to go out and buy the third one this afternoon. i read them in english, which really helps with the jokes. i find that certain jokes and plays on words don't work nearly as well in dutch as they do in english.
i have given up on reading HP Lovecraft for a while. it seems to me that his books have to be read when you really have the time. i started on one of his short stories, couldn't read for a while and discovered i had no idea what was going on when i got back to it.
well, i really ought to get going. i hope to be updating a bit more regularly, but i can't promise anything. hope you are all doing well and taking good care of yourselves!
love, *hugs* Lydia
2 comments:
wow a lot has been goign on since your last post. That sucks about you not getting your stuff back from Silver yet. Friendships after relationships usually dont work so well, so I knwo what you are talking about. I did hear about the soccer match and felt bad that your team lost. I didnt know if you liked soccer or not but felt bad anyway. Sounds like you and the new guy are doign well. I'm glad you are happy with him. You deserve to be happy. How is your kitty doing havent heard about him forever. Sorry your little fishies died. Definitely get the water tested. Hope you are having a good week. I'll be gone from thurs thru sunday but I hope to hear from you before then. Love ya so much girl,
Kelly
Hi hun, you're gonna hafta e-mail, had another crash and it took my address book and contacts info. Now I am just using hotmail and won't bother storing my contacts and e-mail on my hard drive anymore. Too much of a pain. Grrr.
Glad to hear you got thru school and the internship. Sometimes all you can do is just get thru it. *shrugs* I had plenty of semesters like that.
Wow, this new bf has some rude friends...well fuck that guy. O.o I would have left too! Glad Walter went with you at least.
Hope the chibicon is as fun as the other, expect it to be smaller. I know sacanime in Sacramento was way smaller than sakuracon in Seattle and they are ALL smaller than AX in LA but I would never go to that--too crowded.
Well My Dear, take care of yourself and keep in touch
*hugs*
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