A slice of life

Feeling sick..

2008-08-20T09:57:00.003+02:00

ok, so Matty didn't come. it was to be expected, but it still pisses me off. less than a week before his planned arrival, he tells me he isn't able to buy a ticket.. I told him millions of times that they will only get more expensive the longer you wait, but did he listen? you can guess the answer.

so yeah, I'm spending my two weeks off mostly by myself.
Walter came back from France a few days early last week, so I did get to spend a bit more time with him.
But on saturday, he left for a week in Belgium. I couldn't join him on that trip, sadly.

my parents kept saying that I should find a short city trip for myself and just when I was getting excited about that plan, I realised that everything was either booked solid or was way too expensive. I simply don't have that kind of money on me..

the weather over here has been sucky, as are all summers in the Netherlands. so yeah, I'm stuck in the house with nothing to do..

been feeling more and more sick and lonely, lately.
still haven't heard a thing from the school, so I'm still not enrolled for classes. those are meant to start in a week and a half.

so yeah, stressful, lonely times for me.

hope you guys are doing alright.
ciao.

Stressful times

2008-07-30T18:34:00.003+02:00

ok, this'll be short.
I know I haven't been around, but to be honest, the last thing on my mind right now is blogging.

I'm still not enrolled for classes coming september, due to a mistake the school made. for weeks, I've been trying to fix it, but school isn't going to make it easy for me.. still waiting for a reply to the forms I send in (for the third time!)

Dating is slightly frustrating, seeing how his friends seem to have serious problems with me. at the moment, Walter's on a three week vacation to France with his parents, so I'm not hearing much from him and am feeling rather damn lonely.
when he gets back, he'll have just enough time to unpack his bags and then repack them, going on a one week camp with his Scouting group.. so yeah *shrugs*

lucky thing is, when W's on his Scouting trip, Matty is coming over here for a week ^^ I'm pretty anxious to see him again, especially since we haven't been talking much lately.. it's been over a year since I've seen him, so it should be great!
still a bit worried about it though..

So yeah, life's got me in its grip and it doesn't look like I'll get a break any time soon.. wish me luck, guys!

love you all *hugs*
ciao, Lydia

You haven't really been anywhere until you get back home, you know

2008-06-24T10:41:00.005+02:00

oh no, i did it again didn't i? i'm sorry for going mia all the time. but i have to be honest and say i can't really help it. there just are days when i decide not to turn on my laptop at all! i've also been spending a lot more time outside.

i am oficially done with my internship *proud* didn't even have to do any 'repair work' on my reports or make extra assignments! sure, a 6.5 out of 10 isn't the best score ever, but i had been dreading a much worse result.
so now, i'm done with school for the summer and don't have to get back until september, which feels great. though i do have to make sure and check that i've actually been enrolled for classes next year, cause school messed that up before >_<

something else i'm done with is my ex. he's been annoying me for a while now. and of course, i know he's having a hard time cause he still 'loves me too much'. well, i'm just not buying it anymore. if he really did, he'd give more of an effort to at least stay in touch. right now, i have to bug him to return the dvd's he borrowed off me, saying he'd return them after he'd watched them since we would stay friends. i haven't heard from him in weeks and actually had to ask him twice already to return the discs. it seems that he feels like acting as a jerk and i don't need any of his whining. i just hope i get my stuff back soon so i can actually leave it all behind. it's over and if he can't come to grips with that, that's his problem and it shouldn't be mine.
although it is sad to throw away over four years of my life like that, but i guess it really isn't possible to stay friends after having had a relationship. *sigh*

speaking of relationships, i have to admit that i am really enjoying my time with Walter. though his friends are annoying as hell. one of them actually told us the following when we came over to watch the soccer match (damn euro cup! at least it's over for the Netherlands now, so i'm not forced to watch it anymore ^^) anyway, he told us the following:
this has been bothering the whole group now and i feel like i need to speak up. next time, only one of you is allowed to come cause you are too (with lack of a better word in english) lovey-dovey.
i was shocked. the only thing we'd done all evening was sit close to each other and occasionally gave each other a little kiss. nothing french or too touchy, just a quick peck on the lips or cheek.
so, while they do find it very important to know whether or not we have had sex already, it is too much of an eyesore to them to see us hug/kiss one another?!
what he said was actually pretty hurtful to me. i'd been trying all weekend to fit in with the group and he basically told me that i still wasn't accepted. ok, that's understandable since they don't really know me, but they're not even making an effort to get to know me. and by the looks of it, they aren't happy for their friend that he found a girl he likes either. i guess the last part bothers me the most..
i left right after that. didn't dignify them with a response or a goodbye. i had to get out of there or else i would really have regretted my actions. told Walter he could stay if he wanted to, since they're his friends, but i wasn't going to let them walk all over me. if i wanted to take mental abuse, i'd stay home or go back to highschool. he went with me though and we spent a good time talking about what the hell just happened. he assured me that this wasn't the thought of the whole group, which seemed logical, since the last time we were there together that one guy hadn't been there and there hadn't been any problems. after a while Walter admitted he really wanted to see the rest of the game and we went to another friend of his. no problem there, thank goodness.
*sigh* i decided to avoid the group of friends for the time being. sod them, if they can't deal with me, i will not try to deal with them for a while either.

saturday was quite annoying. Walter had to be home early and i decided to go back to the bar on my own. bad idea. well, it wasn't that bad up until the point where i decided i'd just finish my beer and go home, since no one interesting was there. that's exactly the point where i suddenly started receiving free beers from people i didn't know. now, that wouldn't have been too bad, had it been a nice person around my age just looking for a chat. but no, it just had to be a guy well in his thirties trying to pick me up >_< and he wasn't very good at it either, seeing how most of the conversation went on and on about soccer. not my thing.
in fact, earlier that evening an even older guy decided to chat me up using the line: so, you're a Brabander (someone from the south of the Netherlands) then? he figured that out just by the brand of beer i was drinking.. erhm, no, i'm not, i just like this particular brand (now piss off) luckily i was able to get him to go away by starting to work really hard on writing a long text message to Walter.
the other one was a lot harder to get rid of, but thank goodness i noticed an old classmate on the other side of the bar. so i waved, made desperate eye movements and joined him and his friends. that really saved me.

let's see, what else has been going on..
a good lot of my fish died. actually, five of them did within two days. i'm thinking of getting the water in my aquarium tested, cause this sure as hell can't be good!

i also bought a new tv. it's huge ^^ 22" LCD with built in DVD player that plays all regions, so i can actually watch my import anime on there too ^^ i actually only needed a new dvd player, seeing how it went WHIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRTICKTICKTICKWHIRRRRR every time i tried to play a dvd or cd. couldn't hear much of the sound of the disc over the buzzing and ticking of the player. i do owe my mom about 350 bucks now, but it's certainly worth it!

in a few weeks, i'll be off to Chibicon, a one day anime and manga convention in the Netherlands. i've never been to another con than the Animecon, so i'm curious as to how things will go. should be fun.

in the mean time, i'm working hard at the shoestore.
and in my free time, i've started reading the Discworld novels by Terry Pratchett. man, are they ever fun to read! i just finished the second one this morning and am planning to go out and buy the third one this afternoon. i read them in english, which really helps with the jokes. i find that certain jokes and plays on words don't work nearly as well in dutch as they do in english.
i have given up on reading HP Lovecraft for a while. it seems to me that his books have to be read when you really have the time. i started on one of his short stories, couldn't read for a while and discovered i had no idea what was going on when i got back to it.

well, i really ought to get going. i hope to be updating a bit more regularly, but i can't promise anything. hope you are all doing well and taking good care of yourselves!

love, *hugs* Lydia

Radiosilence

2008-06-11T08:01:00.004+02:00

hello sweethearts!

man, has it really been almost a month already?
I have to apologise *bows* I've been away from my laptop a lot and in fact have been a horrible friend. I really should update you guys more, whether it's through here or email.. I really am sorry.

But on to the good news ^^ just two more days of internship to go YAY! I took today off and will only have to work on thursday and friday.. and I'm pretty nervous about that cause I've got quite some things to wrap up and my evaluation's on friday.. late in the afternoon in fact >_< I just really hope I made it, cause if I didn't, I'm pretty much screwed. But I've been working hard, so it should be alright.

A lot of problems have been on the rise considering next schoolyear and my applications for classes. Basically, I applied for two different courses (known to us as differentation minors) and one of them was cancelled because not enough people wanted to take it. I didn't hear about that until about a week ago. Also, apparently, I did something wrong on my forms, which left me unsubscribed for anything. So now I've handed in new forms and am really hoping it will go well this time. I do not want to wait half a year before I'm able to take courses, since it will mean I won't get to my graduation until the year after.. Well, we'll see what happens.

otherwise life has been good to me. Been working a lot, but also been having quite a lot of fun ^^
Been to the musical Les Miserables with my mom last weekend, which was great! Too bad every now and again we couldn't really hear the songs all that well, but the seats were great and gave a good view of the stage.

Also, I've been dating again. Yep, you heard it right ^^
Been spending A LOT of time with Walter, a guy I met at the bar. I actually met him the first time I went there (a few months ago, all by myself).
A few weeks back I spend most of the evening chatting with him and then he walked me home and well, one thing led to another I guess ^^
It's so much fun though ^^ We went to see the new Indiana Jones movie, which was great by the way (too bad Harrison Ford got so very old.. He looked sooooo hot in the older movies, but then again, those are about as old as I am >_< )
We've also been to the beach and the aquarium, where we had some great laughs ^^
And then there's the travelling we've been doing together, he goes to school in Rotterdam and basically joined me in the bus and train when I go to my internship ^^
and since the busses are on strike (the busdrivers think they don't get paid enough. this is their freaking second week and they are just refusing to even talk to their employers about a compromise.. it's getting on my nerves really, cause now the time it takes me to travel to and from work has pretty much doubled..) anyway, since the busses are on strike, we've been cycling to the trainstation together ^^
and we've just been spending some evenings together, just chilling outside and talking.
Today, I'm going to Rotterdam with him, just to shop and hang out ^^
I'll talk more about him in a later post probably ^^

What's been getting on my nerves though, is the people that know him. They just generally annoy me with questions like: have you had sex with him yet? things that really only concern me and him actually (and for the record, no)
And they basically decided for us that we are now boyfriend and girlfriend. I'm sorry, but that just pisses me off. Not that I would mind being his girlfriend, but I would like to become that on my own time and at my own pace. Right now, we're holding off on any of that 'official' stuff, simply because I feel like I'm being pressured into it by people who I don't really know and who don't really know me or even make the effort to get to know me.

But fact remains, that if you ignore all those people, we're just having a lot of fun between the two of us and that's really all that matters ^^

Well, I ought to be off. So sorry once again that I haven't been around. Here's a lolcat to make up for my absence:

(it's not actually dead, you know ^_~)

ciao!

Just so you know: it's not that common, it doesn't "happen to every guy, and it is a big deal!

2008-05-18T12:04:00.003+02:00

heehee, gotta love 'Friends' ^-^

well, it's been a while, hasn't it? Can't say much has been going on lately.
The past few weeks have been quiet. Spent mother'sday weekend at home, watching romantic movies with my mom. the really horrible ones, that leave you with a huge idiotic smile on your face. you all know what i mean, right? (if you don't, we watched 'Love Actually' and 'About a Boy', I just love Hugh Grant heehee ^-^)

after one of the weirdest weeks ever, it's nice to have a day off. due to holidays, busses on strike and overtime i got to make up for, there hasn't really been a steady rythm to my days. also, the internet was out for over two days at the office, leaving me with very little to do all day.

I got to take an afternoon off and spent it at the hairsalon. I usually go there about once a year, seeing how we have this lady who cuts our hair at home. I only trust her with cutting off the dead tips, ever since she really screwed up my hair once >_<
So usually, i keep everything it's boring usual style. but every once in a while, i want something different, a different colour, usually. but this time, i got it cut and colored and everything ^^ everyone keeps telling my how incredibly good it looks now, which makes me wonder if my old style really was that bad.. I guess it was rather boring, and I have to admit, I'm really happy with how it looks now ^^
I should be taking some pictures soon, so I'll put them up then.

well, I guess that was about the highlight of my week.
went out yesterday, which was great fun again ^^ hung out with the guys and just chatted and laughed a lot. though i did drink too much, so now i've got myself a nice little hangover..
time to see if a shower can take care of that problem ^^

ciao!
this is cute and sad at the same time.. I guess I prefer Happy Chair:

Home again, or did I just leave there to be gone for another year?

2008-05-05T18:36:00.004+02:00

Got home safe and sound yesterday.
The weekend was a blast, I had so much fun ^-^ I do believe that this year, I truly experienced the anime con instead of just attending it. It's weird and I feel a bit guilty for liking it better than the years I went there with my ex..

I spent very little money and despite wanting to buy something for each of my friends, I only bought myself some stuff. The dealer room just wasn't as good as previous years.

What my ex forgot to mention was that he booked the penthouse of the hotel >_< So I got to brag about my room for quite a bit hee-hee ^-^ It really was huge!

I got to hang out with loads of different people, especially from the Staff and other Gophers like myself. Actually got a little bonus (the cutest Pucca bag ^-^) for being one of three 'Most Valuable Gophers'. So basically, I was Gopher of the year tee-hee ^-^ and all I did for it was do my job, help some people out and let a poor abandoned girl sleep in my room for a night. That one's a long story, but basically she either got a free place to sleep or was really helped out, since she told everyone her sister abandoned her and she would have to sleep in the same room as two guys she didn't know.. I'm not missing any of my stuff and she was no bother at all, so I don't really mind if it was true or not *shrugs* I'm just a kind hearted person ^_~

I don't think the guy I met a few weeks ago feels the same though. He was rather offended by my honesty. Guess I shouldn't have told him that I didn't know what would happen if I met a nice guy at the con. Figured that since we weren't in a relationship and I'd told him a million times already that I don't want one yet, he wouldn't mind too much.
He got pissed though. He's all: "My feelings for you are completely gone now and I'm sorry for everything we did together" (which isn't much, no worries ^_~)
At least now I know why his nickname is Drama tee-hee
*shrugs* I figured that if he would stand me up to ride around on his bike, his feelings for me weren't actually as deep as he told me.
Sure, I felt bad for being kinda mean to him, but then again..
To use a quote from Gone with the Wind:
"You're like the thief who isn't the least bit sorry he stole, but is terribly, terribly sorry he's going to jail." (oh Rhett, what would my youth have been like without you?)

Well, I ought to get going, not much else to report.
I probably still won't be around too much, I'm just too tired every night to really go out and read blogs and comment. Sorry guys.
*hugs to all*
Ciao

Hell hath no fury...

2008-04-27T12:29:00.003+02:00

Firstly I want to apologise to everyone who read my previous post (which I deleted a few days later). I forgot my Nettiquette and posted while angry and confused. I'll try not to let it happen again ^-^

I'll be going to the AnimeCon on my own. Got a business suite all to myself for a long weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. I'll get to spoil myself a bit and just enjoy myself, so it'll probably all be good. As long as I make sure to stay away from the Dealer's Room and not spend too much money, it'll be fine ^-^
I think I've earned a bit of self-spoiling. Don't know why, but I just do.
It's still too bad my ex won't go, but I can understand why he isn't coming. I guess it would indeed be weird..

My internship problem is hopefully solved. Though I still don't enjoy the work and am dreading when I have to call companies for info (they generally don't really help..) But my days are shorter (6 hours instead of 8) which should give me a bit more rest. So I hope that will help. We'll have to wait and see. But it does mean I have to stay longer..

Not much else to report. I've been put on a curfew by my parents, which I think I mentioned already..

Got stood up yesterday by the guy I met a few weeks ago. Guess it was just a fling, which kinda sucks, cause I really started to like him. He even came and met my parents *laughs* guess they scared him off..
What really sucks is that he didn't show up because he was too busy riding his new BMX bike. So yeah, I'm less interesting/fun than a bike.. Not so great for my selfimage *pout*
And yet, on some level, I find it hard to really care. I never wanted a steady thing again already, so I guess it's also my own fault.
Growing up is confusing.. Same goes for men, I just don't get them *shrugs and shakes head*

Well I ought to be off. Since I don't know what to talk about anyway. Hope you guys are doing alright and know that you are all in my thoughts. I just can't really get myself to come around.. Don't know why.

*hugs* Ciao.

MIA

2008-04-19T09:48:00.002+02:00

Well, I have to say I'm sorry.
I've somewhat disappeared from internet life as it seems lately. Not because I don't like it here, but because a lot of things have been going on.
The internship isn't going too great and I am now counting down the weeks until I'm done with it. I am still afraid that I won't be graded high enough and will miss out on the points I need so much.. But I'll probably live.

Also, my parents put me on a curfew. No laptop or phone after eleven pm. It's a ridiculous rule really, especially since they don't really check on me..
But I have myself to blame for it.

Last saturday I decided to check out the nightlife in my hometown and didn't expect much of it, since I was going out alone and don't really know many people. But the bar I went to was quite nice, had a lot of 'alternative' people coming, people I like being around the most. So at first I enjoyed myself by listening to the stories of the people around me and then something that I hadn't expected happened. Someone I knew came in.
I didn't really know him that well, I'd just met him at parties from an old co-worker of mine and I occasionally saw him at the liquor store while I worked there and then one time at the shoestore. So he sat down with me and we had a little chat, which was nice. He was with a whole group, so eventually I mingled and after he had left, I was still very much enjoying myself ^-^
After the bar closed I was planning on going home, but got lost in conversation with another guy I'd just met. We kind of wandered through the streets and just chatted and had fun.
So when I finally turned up at home, around 4 am (maybe even 4.30..) my mom wasn't too happy. Problem was, I told my parents I'd probably be home around twelve, since I didn't expect to have fun. And then I was having so much fun that I forgot to let my parents know that it might get a bit late. And then I didn't hear my phone when they called and texted me >_<

So yeah, I got myself into a bit of trouble there ^-^"
But I think it's going to be alright.
I've seen the guy again yesterday, which was great. I don't really want to be dating again already, but that's no reason for me to not have some fun, right? I mean, it's been over a month now.. Are there rules to dating shortly after a break-up? I don't really know, since I've just gotten out of my first serious relationship.. It's confusing..

Today's the birthday of my grandmother, so I'll get to see all of my family again and answer questions about the break-up and on how I'm doing.. [sarcasm]That'll be great fun[/sarcasm] But I don't think it will be all that bad. And with a bit of luck, if we're not home too late, I can go out for a bit again ^-^ If my parents let me, that is..

Well, I really ought to go and shower, seeing how I've got to go to work in a couple hours.. It should be fun, seeing it's the shoestore and not the office ^-^

Take care and I'll try to get back in touch sometime soon. Know that I haven't forgotten about you guys and you can always reach me by e-mail ^-^
PS: Kelly, dear, I ADORE the stationary, it is soooo cute ^-^ I am also glad you like the gift. Oh, and a warning: the candy might be disgusting >_< sorry!!

And now a graph, just for the heck of it:

And no, it's no 'find the flaw'. It is very much true if you think about it ^-^
Ciao!

And once again, the internet because someone else's powertrip..

2008-04-12T06:53:00.002+02:00

Well this sucks!
For the past few months I've been somewhat enjoying this free online game BiteFight, which basically puts you in the shoes of either a vampire or a werewolf and you have to work at a graveyard to gain money, or go on raids into town to gather money and blood/meat (depending on your race).
Then you can spend the money you've earned on stuff like armor and weapons or to make your hidout a bit better. Of course, it is also possible to spend real money on this game, getting more and better equipment and all that.
It's a simple text-based RPG which was fun. Up until a few days ago.

I was putting my character to work at the graveyard every day (you don't have to be on the computer all the time, you can just tell it to work for 8 hours, turn the comp off and go to work yourself. When you return to the site, you've got a message in your inbox telling you how much you've earned.) I was saving up for the next armor, which costs quite a bit, so I wasn't spending any of my hard-earned in-game money.
And this jerk comes by, most likely the first time at random, since you can have the site randomly find you someone of another race to fight and he gets a bunch of gold from me, because I lost the fight horribly (what do you want, he is level 13, I'm at 9)
He then decides I've got too much money for my own good and starts attacking me (if you know the character name of a player, you can seek them out for fights too) and not just once or twice more. No, try 5 to 10 times A DAY!
At first I didn't think too much of it. Until this went on for about a week and I was getting tired of seeing all my gold go to this one jerk.
So I sent him a message, politely asking him to go pick on someone else.
What do I get in return?
If you'd spend your money on your skills, I wouldn't pick on you (for a while) I mean, WTF are you doing with 10.000... friendly advice, buy skills
Now, I know he might have meant it nicely. No, that's not true. I want to make myself believe he meant it nicely.
I told him I don't need anyone to tell me how to play a free, online game and that I would appreciate it if he'd bugger off somewhere else.
As a reply, I once again got the 'friendly' advice to spend my money and he told me that if anyone gets him more than 1000 after a fight, he picks on them for a couple of days. Though he then said I should be safe from him for now.
So it's the way he plays the game.
I told him once again I don't need any advice from anyone and proceeded to thank him for ruining a nice little pass-time of mine. If I wanted to be bullied, I'd go back to highschool.

I am getting so tired of online games now. All they really seem to be is a powertrip for one person or the other, and for some reason I always end up on the bad side of the equasion.
It's like being bullied for your lunch money, only this time, it's online with a fictional character that is supposed to get you some release from the mean ass world that is the real one..
I don't think I'll be playing much BiteFight anymore. If all I'm able to do is get money that someone else will just take from me every day because he believes he can put it to better use, there's not much fun for me.
If this guy decides to give me the friendly advice again, I think I might snap to the unpolite and tell him to get his own life to control. (as a matter of fact, this guy is one of the people who spend actual money on this game. I'm not, I'd rather spend it on stuff that actually exists.

I guess I'm just against people being able to buy in-game stuff for online games. This is part of the reason I never started playing World of Warcraft. There are too many people who just buy their way to a high level and then start to pick on the ones who just try to actually get there by playing the game. *shrugs*

Anyway, I wanted to get this story off my chest. It's been bothering me for a while now.
Oh, maybe a LOLcat or Funny Graph will brighten the mood of this post.. Let me find one..

Hmm.. nope, that's not what I was looking for.. Though it does apply for this guy's case..

Lets try again

Ah, much better ^_^
Now, I must go and try to get a little more sleep before I got to work.

You can has update

2008-04-09T12:02:00.002+02:00

Been to the doctor today, who now blames me being sick so much on my exhaustion.
I'm back on sleep medication and will be taking vitamines daily to try and get my energy back up.

In the meantime, I have to try and work from home today and tomorrow I want to be back at the office.

Wish me luck!

Waking up is hard to do, but sleeping's impossible too..

2008-04-08T18:35:00.004+02:00

I like Demetri Martin, he's funny. Find him on YouTube if you need a good laugh.

Still sick. Though my actual flu has been reduced to a bad case of the sniffles, I keep getting send home from work. It is no fun and very frustrating. It's not that I'm actually sick, I'm just not fit enough to work. I don't have the energy and when I've worked for about three hours I'm beat. My doctor blamed my cold for the headaches and told me that not sleeping without meds is still better than sleeping with them. I see my doc never had any sleeping problems *sigh*
But what can I do? So for the second day this week, I was send home from work and when I got home I just went straight to bed and slept through the afternoon. My headache is still there.
I hate the fact that I'm getting behind on my internship. If I could, I'd terminate it right now, quit college and start looking for a job that will be fun, will get me enough money to live and can keep me busy. Of course I know I can't without that little piece of paper college will give me.
I'm just tired of having to try so hard for everything.
Tomorrow I'm going to try and work from home. I have paperwork (reports) to make *bleh*
Maybe it will be better for me to stay home for a bit and only work on projects for a few hours. The way I feel now, I can't put in 100%, which they do expect from me when I'm at the office. Maybe I'll try making a new appointment with the doc. Who knows he might listen to me this time.

So yeah, sick and at home, which isn't good to start with. Now add to that the atmosphere at home and you got yourself a lethal cocktail.
I can't blame my parents for being tense and fighting a lot though.
See, my dad isn't sure if he's going to be able to keep his job. Turns out things aren't going well with the hotel he works at and now the company decided to sell it. They'll try to sell it as a working hotel, with all the staff included, but if it won't sell, everyone will be fired and the building and grounds will just be sold.
So stress still keeps adding up. We don't know anything yet, so every day we're a bit nervous when my dad gets home...

So yeah, life's not so great at the moment.

Also, as if my sleeping wasn't bad enough to begin with, I managed to watch Silent Hill on friday and haven't really been able to sleep well since.
That's my own fault really..

Yeah, I've got it down to an art-form

2008-04-03T19:22:00.002+02:00

So, been sick since monday now.. Actually got sent home from work once again and told to get some rest. And boy, did I ever need some rest!
Monday afternoon through to wednesday I've done pretty much nothing but sleep. Well, sleep, read, watch tv and get my ass kicked by Lu Bu in Dynasty Warriors..
Today I've been doing slightly better. Might actually make it out of bed by tomorrow, meaning I can go work at the shoestore on saturday and be back in the office by monday. So all's good in my world.

That is, if you don't count me getting extremely bored. Not that working at the office is so damn exciting (if you don't count the occasional extremely angry email I receive from people who just can't communicate well and have never heard of nettiquette *shrugs*) But since I've been working fulltime for just over two months now, I got used to being out of the house and only being at home to eat, check messages and sleep.

Now I've got full days to fill with whatever can keep my mind busy.
Luckily, when I just finished reading just about everything I had to read (not counting the two Hannibal books, some CSI novels, a big novel by Kate Mosse and some shrapnel books that I generally tend to forget about) my ordered Omnibus of H. P. Lovecraft was delivered. It's the first one in a line of three and called "At the mountains of madness".

Now, I don't know how familiar you all are with mister Lovecraft, but apparently he's pretty big in the States.. I hadn't heard of him until I decided to google for Chtulhu (hoping I spelled that right) since everyone and their momma were making references on the intertubes.
Lovercraft's supposed to be a very good horror-author, which sparked my interest. Haven't come very far yet in between sleeping and losing at Dynasty Warriors, but the suspense in the first story is already rising. This'll prove to be pretty good I'm sure.
Bonus is, I read it in English (which isn't my first language, in case anyone who doesn't know me yet reads this) so I have to pay extra attention and get extra pulled in by the story. Of course, the nasty little brother of this bonus is that I don't understand certain words, but it's not all that bad. Mostly seems like biological lingo anyway so I wouldn't understand it in Dutch either (much like the medical lingo in House, or the antropological babblings of Bones).

So yeah, despite being sick, I'm keeping myself entertained.

Also watched Predator 2, which was a good deal better than the first, but still didn't live up to my expectations. I've got my hopes up for AVP now, but am stalling until I actually watch it, afraid I'll be disappointed yet again.. But then again, it'll have Alien in it, so I'll be a bit more pleased with it.
I think I can kick Predator's ass.. Somehow, them needing advanced weapons makes them so much less scary to me *shrugs* I much more fear an Alien who can rip my head off with it's (second, inner set of) teeth than a Predator who needs a fancy lazer gun and armor.

Yeah, I ought to do a little more healing and what better way than by reading something scary that will make sure I won't sleep for days? (though I doubt it'll be that scary..)

Take care!

it wouldn't be so bad, if I could take a good thing and make it last..

2008-03-30T10:36:00.004+02:00

Times have been extremely busy lately, what with me having to finish up on an assignment from school, several projects needing work on at my internship and having to work at the shoestore too. Luckily for me, the assignment is finished, approved and therefor done with. Now I just need to get myself a new assignment to cover for the other project I flunked horribly..
Work at my internship is getting slightly better, though I REALLY need to start on my own little project, or I'll flunk my entire internship.. I really don't want that to happen..
Work at the shoestore is going alright too. Yesterday I finally had my evaluation (since last week my boss forgot her papers) and things turned out fine. She had me graded higher on most of the subjects, but then again, I'm always awfully harsh for myself ^-^" I have to admit that most of the time I'm really tired at the store and I'm slacking off at the internship too.. I haven't been sleeping too well, well, I do get sleep, but I don't get any rest from it, so yeah. So I end up being extremely tired all the time..

On friday I took half a day off from my internship to do some long overdue shopping. I wanted to pick up the last volume of the Fullmetal Alchemist manga, but of course, it was nowhere to be found. I did get myself some other nice stuff: Predator and Predator 2 (the first cost me over twice as much as the second!), Dynasty Warriors 2 for the PSP, some chinese candy, a new phonestrap (I ventured out into Rotterdam's Chinatown, had so much fun ^-^) and some manga and comics.
I also couldn't help but get some goodies for some friends heehee ^-^

Last week, me and my dad did a lot of work on my aquarium and I have to say, I love how things turned out. Got me a lot of new fish and all the necessary new plants (the old ones all either died or were covered in alge) I still don't like the fact that it's crowded with guppies though.. I'm getting so tired of those hehe ^-^' So once it gets warmer I'll probably put then in the little pond in our backyard.

I also got to watch Alien 3 and Alien: Resurrection (as I was told by a good friend it was NOT called Alien 4 *laughs*) and I have to say, out of all four movies, I liked the fourth one best. It had just that little edge of sarcasm, humor and a lot more action if you ask me. Also, more shots of the aliens, which I think the other movies were lacking of (except for maybe the second one..)
I simply loved the whole change in Ripley's character. This just works so much better for Sigourney Weaver.

Also, since I got myself both Predator movies, I decided to watch the first one yesterday. I'm afraid I can't be too enthusiastic about it.. I hate watching The Governator.. He's just too.. Muscled *shudders* and his accent hurts my ears *sad*
Predator himself was alright though, but the movie just missed a lot in my view. Like decent dialog or well done fights. I still can't believe they were all confused about not hitting anything but plants when they were shooting randomly in front of them. Oh well, I've got my hopes on the second one, which I will probably watch today.

I think I've got a pretty bad case of the flu coming my way. Though it isn't as bad as last night, my head hurts, all my muscles feel cramped up, I can hardly move my neck and my nose is clogged.. My brother has been sick for the past week now and one of the people at the office insisted on working even though she has the flu too. So it would've been easy to catch a bug from either one.
Though I'll probably won't let myself be sick. But I will try to stay in bed today, get some rest ^-^ The only thing I really need to take care of today is my taxes, since april 1st will be the last day you can send them in.. And I can always use a bit of a financial boost, seeing how my phonebill has been getting huge. (The phonecompany actually disconnected me this week because they thought my phone had been stolen. I believe it was one of the stupidest things ever done to me, so I'm thinking about quitting them and finding another company)

Well, that's all from me for today. I know it's long, I haven't updated in too long and too much happened in between.

Take care guys!
Ciao

Nobody knows what it's like, behind blue eyes..

2008-03-20T22:14:00.003+01:00

It's been a hectic week. With me getting sick, two projects at my internship that both were top-priority and me having to do way too much for me to handle.. Which is why I got sick..

First things first: about a week back, the other intern broke her foot. Badly. She had surgery on monday and was able to return home on tuesday. Not sure how she's doing now, but she probably won't be able to come to work any time soon. So now I have to do parts of her jobs, while still handling my own..
Then there is one of the projects that had to be completed this week, meaning I was supposed to call companies and ask them why they hadn't replied or anything and if there was anything I needed to include in the whole thing. (it's too long of a story to tell completely, just work with me here) Unfortunately, my skills on the phone are lacking and I actually don't like to do conversations on the phone unless they are with someone I know and can talk about the most random things. So I kept procrastinating it and eventually found out I wouldn't be able to do it at all.
So I went to my supervisor and part of her was kind of pissed that I didn't tell her until this late and part of her felt sorry for me, since I was already pushing myself to work (this was wednesday, I've been a bit on the sick side since monday) So she did take over, but not without giving me a little speech about what to do next time ^-^" which I deserved, of course.

Then there was the huge mailing that had to be sent out by the end of this week. Luckily, I had some help from the other people at the office, but in the end, I spend most of this week typing and printing letters, putting them in envelopes and stamping them. In a way, this was a great job for me. Didn't really require any thinking, which is something I enjoy lately.

I went home sick two hours early yesterday. Wanted to take two hours off today to make my weekend just that little bit longer.. Didn't happen though, cause I forced myself to get the mailing done. And I did, just in time to catch the bus I'd normally take after 8 hours of work.. So no free time for me ^-^"

I've had my eye on this comic store that's on the way to work.. I just still haven't had the chance to go in there (I actually have to get out of the bus halfway, so it's not like I can easily go in and out) So I promised myself to leave a bit early today to go and check it out. Well, I guess it will have to wait until next week.

It's a long weekend thanks to Easter, YAY! I still have to work all day at the shoestore on saturday AND have my work-evaluation, I'm so nervous!
But other than that, I have quite the weekend planned..
Need to work on my assignment, since it's due on tuesday, joy..
But what's more important is that I will probably go shopping with my mom tomorrow and then spend the rest of the day working on my aquarium ^-^! It needs new plants and I need to clean the filter and well.. Basically I need to clean the whole thing.. Too bad it's still too cold out to put the guppies in the little pond we've got in the backyard. I'm getting rather tired of having a tank full of guppies and I really want to buy some more exotic fish.. So I'll probably think of a solution tomorrow and maybe buy some new fish ^-^

So yeah, pretty energetic about the weekend. I wonder if I can keep myself busy long enough in order not to feel miserable.. We'll have to wait and see.

Ooooooooh, WANT:

(the picture is also a link to the post about what it actually is ^-^)

Well, I ought to go and get some sleep, got a busy day tomorrow ^-^
Take care all *hugs*

A brave new world..

2008-03-16T20:14:00.005+01:00

Whoa, that sure was odd.. This was my first weekend on my own after about 4 years and 9 months.. Yesterday wasn't too bad, since I had to work at the shoe store, so my afternoon was filled with lovely business. I woke up at 7 in the morning though and couldn't get back to sleep >_< I'm now fully used to my alarm going off at 6.30 during the week and on saturdays, it's still in my system. After work I heated up some left over Chinese food and watched TV. I've been able to do some very much overdue movie watching ^^ Made it a night of bad horror and fish, nicely packaged in Piranha and Piranha 2: The Spawning. What can be worse than purring piranhas? Flying purring piranhas ^^ We had a great time, me and my bottle of Smirnoff that is ^^ When I got ready for bed, I decided to call a friend, but instead got his sister on the phone. Which wasn't a bad thing at all, seeing how we've been great friends for a long while already (met the guy through her) and we had been losing touch. So I had a great talk with her and then went to sleep.

Today wasn't all that great though. In the middle of the night my ex send me a text message. He went to a party with some friends and aparently, a girl had been hitting on him. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't mind him having a life and all, but for now, I just don't need to know about that kind of thing.. Maybe in a month or two I can handle news like that *shrugs* Guess I do still love him, eh? But when being with someone makes you miserable, even if you do love him, I don't think you should stay.. Life's too short and I'm too young to be miserable for the rest of it..

Anyway.. I couldn't really get myself out of bed today. Had a huge hangover, of course and hadn't slept nearly enough.
Eventually, around 12, I decided to at least eat something and then I watched Alien (I got the box with all four movies for my birthday, but still hadn't watched any of them >_< ) After that, I got dressed and went downstairs to watch Aliens, of which everyone keeps telling me it's better than the first. I'm not sure on my judgement yet though, seeing how I got bored around the end.. The Alien Queen did very much fascinate me though. I really loved the look of her, especially since there were these subtle differences from the Warrior types aliens ^^
I still have to watch the third and fourth movie and then I'll decide which one I like best.
After that, I'll have to watch the Predator ones and then I'll finally be able to watch AvP ^^

Next to that, I've kept myself busy with Guild Wars. Did some quests together with random strangers, but I still don't like the element of working together.. Guess I'm a bit of a loner when it comes to RPG's.

I've taken up watching Reaper. I don't know how well-known it is, but I really like it (the two episodes I've seen so far anyway).
I really like the guy who plays the Devil. He gives the character a good bit of class, which reminds me to no end of "Sympathy for the Devil", which is still one of the most brilliant songs ever written ^^
And I just love the main guy, with his puppy-dog eyes and bed-hair ^^'

Well, I've ranted enough for today.
Ciao!

I believe an introduction is in order

2008-03-15T07:42:00.011+01:00

Hello,
my name is Lydia, but I'm also known as Lyd (Lyt), Lytjuh, Kitten, Butterfly and HEY LADY!
I've had a blog for years on another site, but recent developments sort of killed that place. So I came here looking for a new online home.

Well, to tell you about me:
I work for the Zuid-Hollands Bureau for Tourism as an intern (I study Tourism). This I do five days a week, fulltime. On saturdays I work at a shoestore, which I love like no other job I've ever had ^^ (so far I've worked at: a supermarket, liquor store, snackbar and bookstore). Then there is my tropical fish tank to keep me occupied, but unfortunately, I've been neglecting that...
I just came out of a break-up, so my weekends aren't spend with my boyfriend anymore... Still have to find something else to do...

I'm somewhat of a gamer, but due to lack of a proper console, I don't game too much (I've got a GBA, PSP and my trusty laptop which likes to die midway a game). Lately I have been getting back into the swing of things over at Guild Wars, which I've loved since the beginning.
I read, I practically eat books for breakfast *laughs* Though that's not entirely true, I do read a lot. Whether it be novels, comics or manga (japanese comics), I read it ^^

And I fill the rest of my time with watching movies. Mostly those ghastly, aweful B-genre monster/horror movies. The really Cheezy ones ^^ That and anime (japanese animated) series. My favorite 'normal' (or rather, live-action) series are House, Bones and CSI (the original version dangit! I used to watch them all, but after a while Horation started to annoy me like nothing else and the colors of NYC got me depressed ^_~)

I teaching myself a bit of HTML-coding and like seeing what making little changes can do to the results. Can't say I'm good at it or anything, but I enjoy having some power over the interwebs ^^
Next to that, I make wallpapers. Mostly it's plainly putting together pictures, adding effects and such, but I've been (once again) teaching myself to make more of the elements myself. When I have the time, I can make four or five wallies a day. That is, if I'm inspired ^^"

What I have planned for this place:
I guess I'll be posting about my life here. What I do, what's on my mind, what happens in my world. Maybe I won't be around much, but I want my friends to be able to keep in touch with me and this place seems to be perfect since not-members can comment too (or so I've heard ^_~)

I believe that's enough for this introduction... If you want to know anything else, you can of course comment or email (though I can't promise I'll read an email if I don't know who it's from ^^")

That's all for today, I'll come back later and make a proper post ^_~
Ciao!